Service is a MUST!

Even when we are going through the toughest time of our lives the most important thing to me is that we serve. We have spent less that $100 on stuff for Clara because of the kindness of others and it has been such a blessing! Even when we have nothing we give everything we can, because we know how it feels to be scared that you aren't going to be able to feed your baby. We know how it feels to wonder where your baby is going to sleep. We know how it feels to decide you aren't going to eat for a day or two so you can keep the power and water on. We serve  because we know where you are right now, because we are in the same place. It's not charity, it's compassion. It's not pity, it's understanding. It's not judgment, it's love. It gets better, slowly, but it gets better. I promise.

I'm a Mormon

I think being a bi-sexual Mormon is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with and I think it will continue to be my hardest trial. But I wouldn't change that for anything! My sexuality is a huge part of who I am. It has shaped how I look at the world, how I act around others, and what kind of wife and mother I am and will be. Although I can't recall all of the shocking things that have been said to me by fellow Mormons and Christians I can give you a sampling. One particular incident that I am reminded of is when I was in singles ward. I had only been in the ward for a week or two and it was my first time attending the Monday night group activity. I was quietly sitting to the side waiting for the meeting to start and I over heard two young men talking about their missions. Their conversation turned toward one particular woman and the taller of the two young men began to express his confusion and frustration at the fact that this woman wanted desperately to join the church but "refused to quit liking girls". I turned to the young man and quietly stated that she could not stop liking girls anymore than he could grow an extra nose. I told them I was bi-sexual and began to explain that being gay is not a temptation but a trial of how to accept yourself while still standing true to your values and being strong in your faith of Gods plan. I was not halfway through my first sentence when he cut me off with "You know gay people can't get into heaven and you aren't going to find a good husband if you keep liking girls". I left early that night, and though I was hurt I was more confused as to why we could believe in the same church and have such different images of God. The God I prayed to wouldn't keep me out of heaven for something I couldn't control, he would welcome me to heaven for dealing with that trial as best as I could. The God I loved wouldn't reject hundreds of people for something that was a part of their identity. I am going to heaven because my God is a loving God who accepts me for who I am. I am going to heaven because I am continually striving to be the best person that I can be. I love God and I know that he loves me for who I am.

Who am I?

I am a wife.

I am a mother.

I am bi-sexual.

I am a Mormon.

Clara Vash's first week! We love our little miracle! I am currently writing her birth story and I will post that later.

I love how her body fits mine perfectly!

Just a few minutes old

                                      All cleaned up at the birth center

She got super mad when I tried to swaddle her xD I guess she wants to sleep like daddy

Sleeping like daddy again

With Grandma Wright

Wearing an outfit from Brooke and Captain

With uncle Steve

My battle scars

Babywearing

Her face sized binki

Faaaabuloooooous!!!

The outfit from Great Aunt Addie

UPDATE:
26 Weeks 6 Days
1.5 cm Dilated
Effacement 0

The adventures of "patiently" waiting for Clara. In other words this is how I entertained myself today.

Her hair bow holders

C for Clara

Decorated with two flowers and some cute beads

V for Vash

Decorated with a sea turtle bow

B for Blaber

Decorated with a simple coordinating bow

Birthing Center My Bag

What I packed in my bag for the birthing center, and please excuse the choppy editing I'm still figuring out how to work my software.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F26NKTCywzg&feature=youtu.be

Birthing Center Diaper Bag

What I packed in my Daughters diaper bag for the birthing center.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5_2gUOLY7U&feature=youtu.be

My first video!

Vlog Introduction
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zdf4UjwrpXk

Hey Guys!
This is the Blog that goes with my Vlogging YouTube channel. I will post links to all of my vlogs on you tube and may even add some other posts such as tutorials and such :)

Here is a link to my channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3puWuf0bREtlji5S52Jc6A

--Sami